Thursday, October 28, 2010

Loves:

Making it through Thursday, with only one more day to go...
The smell of popcorn....
Sweet sleep...
e-mail...


Hates:

October...
Being sick...

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Misses:

Living in the country...
Burning brush...
Roasting marshmallows in that brush fire...
The smell of hay...
The smell of horses...
Burning a fire in the fireplace...
Having a garden...
My mom...
My brother...
You...
Loves:

That I only have two more days until the weekend...
The sunrise in my rear-view mirror this morning...
The crisp, cool air...
Sweater weather...
The yellow leaves on the tree outside my window at work...


Hates:

Being sick...
That the sunrise reminded me of one more thing we didn't do together...
Getting into my truck after work, and immediately hearing one of  "those" songs...
Hearing the text alert on my phone, then, looking at it...
The silence...
Being the last choice...again.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Loves:
You.

Hates:
This.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Loves when:

I make it through a Monday...
Sound sleep keeps the nightmares away...
Words match actions...

Hates when:

I go through another day with a sick stomach....
I go through another day lost and alone...
Words don't match actions...

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Loves:

That I am able to listen to most music now, and NOT cry...
I am on Fall Break...

Hates:

That I am having HORRIBLE nightmares...
That I wake up screaming and crying because of those nightmares...
That said nightmares make me want to vomit...


Dear Lord,
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE take these nightmares away....

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Loves when:                                                                

People tell me the truth the FIRST time, when given the opportunity....
People do the right thing....
Life makes me smile...
God sends me a "Te amo" when I need it the most....
God has a sense of humor...
I get my hair washed, by someone else...
I paint, I write, I finish something...
It rains...
The leaves are turning colors...
I sleep ALL night long, without waking up crying...
I find a song that I can relate to...
I can spend time with my kids...
I try something new...


Hates when:

People repeatedly refuse to tell the truth, when given the opportunity...
People do the selfish thing, myself included...
Life makes me cry...
I feel like God forgot about me...
I feel all alone...
I wake up at 1:00 a.m., not able to go back to sleep...
I wake up at 3:00, crying...
I wake up at 4:30, after having a nightmare, and I cry again...
I hear a song that makes me cry...
I have to listen to silence...
I have to wait...
I constantly feel sick at my stomach....
I feel like I'm in limbo...
I can't look forward, only backward...

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Loves:

Spending a Sunday morning with my grandson...
Spending a Sunday afternoon with my daughter, home from college...
An unexpected call...
Being able to listen to music again without crying, at least for today..
Hope...
The comfort of being at home...
That my daughter STILL needs me...


Hates:

That my daughter is having such a hard time adjusting to college...
That I can't do much to help her with this adjustment, except listen...
That I can't "fix" it...
Uncertainty...
Waiting...
Distance...

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Loves:

When sleep finally comes...
When sleep stays....
When an old friend calls...
A short road trip to clear  the mind...
That I'm losing weight...
That God has a sense of humor, that I'll never understand...
Hugs from my kids....
The safety of my home...

Hates:

Being sick at my stomach for over a week...
Distance...
Being such a whiney baby...
Feeling this way...
The circumstances that are killing me right now...
Isolation...
Loneliness...